5 – Listening

Are you listening inside to the voice that speaks within you?  Do you hear it calling you forward or trying to share with you something it wants you to know?  Sometimes when we aren’t listening the information will come through in physical ways.  Our body will have parts with discomfort or tightness or anxiety or just more energy.  Information will come to us to support us, to offer an opportunity to pause and listen.  If we haven’t quite exercised this muscle, this information can come in less subtle ways.  It may be a car comes out of no where and we are alerted quickly calling us forward to pay attention or someone walking in front of us is too slow – might not mean they are slow, it may mean we need to slow down.

This past year I have been focused on connecting more deeply to my inner knowing, my intuition.  I knew when I ventured into this intention it would be a lot about quieting down, shushing the noise around my head and sometimes my heart to really hear what was at my core.  It has been extraordinary to experience quieting and listening then hearing and feeling and then knowing.  We all have an inner guide, compass, barometer, that is steering us, directing us, and informing us of when, where, and with whom we will join.  I sometimes joke that I fall asleep in my head – that I forget I have this skill, this muscle and that I know how to use it.  I may be experiencing something that is uncomfortable and look only at the symptom rather than the cause.  I can get busy being distracted focusing on the way I “feel” rather than pausing, placing a little space between what I am “feeling” and where it may be coming from.  When I get clear that my intention is to listen and to hear, the clarity comes forward immediately, just as quickly as these words stream from my consciousness to this page.

For example, earlier I was feeling some tightness in my upper back between my shoulder blades.  I don’t feel this symptom often and it was uncomfortable.  I decided to ask my body what was this physical feeling attempting to tell me and immediately, “open, open your heart” came forward.  I have been quite inward the last five days.  I needed to do this to take care of myself and this physical symptom brought forward the inquiry and now the realization.  When this message came forward I identified with it straight away.

The tightness which also means constriction or contraction felt like a metaphor for the closed off way of being I have been in.  I realized in that moment it was time to let that go and to open my heart – to share my heart more openly and actively.  It was time to come out from under my solitude.  In that listening, I derived this information.  It resonated within me – the inner knowing, I spoke of earlier.  I could hear the message because I trust my intuition.  All of this because I have chosen to quiet within, to pause, and to listen.  To be my own healer.

We have this capacity if we trust and explore.  It’s that or I could have griped about the feeling, perhaps let it be the reason I become snippy, and even take a muscle relaxer to quell the symptom.  You decide.  My path worked for me.  The tightness has dissipated, my heart is opening, I am looking forward to sharing it more tomorrow with whomever I am in contact with, and I have deepened in the knowing that I can listen within, empower myself, and take care.

For your consideration…

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10 – Today

Today was a tough day.  I was in touch with fear, anger, frustration and envy.  Oh, how I struggle admitting the last one.  Yes, today was that day.  I had many moments of awareness, just holding and reminding myself it is all temporary and it still was a tough day. You know those days that seem like the antithesis of those other days when you feel clear, focused, grateful, and confident?  Yep, one of those.  With all the skills I have learned through the years, I am grateful for how I worked my process (and I did work it today), and I recognize that sometimes it is what it is.

So I clarified earlier this evening that I would let sleep heal me.  I set an intention to get rest, to turn over my feelings to God and to accept.  Here’s to releasing, healing, and transcending through sleep.  May I wake tomorrow with more space in my consciousness to serve, to live into joy, and to share my heart.

P.S. You are reading this tomorrow. :-)

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14 – Meditation

I am a newbie when it comes to meditation and I spent many years thinking and claiming that I didn’t know how.  I understood the concept of creating stillness and emptying my mind and I thought since I had little luck emptying my mind, I was definitely not meditating and therefore, I did not know how.  What I have come to find out, –  that was meditation. The intention, focus, and pursuit of stillness leads exactly there.  It might be that I actually experience ten seconds here and five seconds there where I found some emptiness of the mind, some stillness.  And the sum total is meditation.  The experiencing of quieting, even intermittent with interruptions of the mind, is meditation.

Listening to my breath or even focusing on deepening in my breath by filling up my lower belly, my lung/rib area, and then my chest has been another gateway to experiencing meditation.  Doing that process five to ten times in a row will bring on a quieting.  I understand there to be all kinds of ways, methods, modalities to deepen in meditation.  I have read that true meditation is complete stillness and I have such better results when I play my “Calm – Meditation” station on pandora, set my iPhone alarm for fifteen minutes and fade away to the melodious sounds.  If I find a little mind chatter I try to go back to listening for my breath until I am no longer consciously thinking about anything.  It’s doable with some time and attention.

I recently participated in the Deepak + Oprah “Perfect Health” 21 Day Meditation Challenge.  It was a nice process and it had me wishing I could receive one of those daily emails forever.  I found that my days were just more fluid and soft.  I was able to relinquish any charged energy to the process and sink in to each day.  Because I chose to commit to the 21 days, I deepened in my overall meditation process.  One tip on that is, I threw away all the rules.  If I felt like listening to the meditation laying down in my bed, that is what I did. It was the journey and how I was going to be a passenger on it that created the foundation for a deepening, a place I could recognize and return to.

A few more benefits I would add from meditation:

inner peace – you will just feel more quiet and calm

space – is created within that can directly affect how we respond to life and living – things happen and instead of reacting, you pause before responding or better yet you don’t feel the need to respond at all

feelings of joy and abundance – in the peace and quiet we are left with our innate nature which is simple and easy to please – when you are at peace, you “need” very little.  That feeling of realizing you are whole, is pure joy!

transcendence – things that may have a had on hold on you, lift, diminish and fall away completely

gratitude – the humility and humbleness come front and forward when we gift ourselves with this time; we can be in gratitude with ourselves for doing something we didn’t think we knew how to do and this simple awareness creates such gratitude inside of us

overall mindfulness – which can directly affect the unconscious things we can do like overeat, drink or other non-self-honoring decisions

the list goes on and on…

So I offer up a new meditation offering, beginning this Monday, April 23 for 21 days.

Please join me.

For your consideration…

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18 – Tale

What story or tale are you telling yourselves these days about yourself?  It may be crystal clear or somewhat beneath the surface but you have a story running and it is indeed, running your life.  Have you checked it out lately?  Is it supporting the dreams you have for yourself or where you know you’re meant to go?  Is it lifting you up, providing possibility and encouraging or motivating you?  If your story is not moving you forward, I say, check it out.

Often our stories are very subtle and yet, powerful beyond measure.  They can become our behaviors and thought patterns so fluidly that we literally forget and even convince ourselves that we cannot change or transcend them.  This is just nonsense, resistance, and fear-based thinking that is counter intuitive to living into the gift of life.

They say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result. Check out your story and be sure it aligns or is paving the way for where you know you are meant to be.  You deserve this and so does humanity.

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19 – Education

I just spent the weekend in one of the most wonderful and beautiful places I know; the class room at the University of Santa Monica.  I could try to explain why I associate these adjectives to my experience there and really the simplest way is to share that it is a place of pure LOVE.  Nothing more, nothing less.

There is something going on at USM that I don’t believe is occurring any where else on this planet.  I am sure there is healing, loving, awakening, expansion, spiritual growth, among others happening in many places and none of which are quite like the work that is offered at USM.  Learning how to heal your Self by coming into the awareness that we are all Spiritual Beings having a human experience is profound.  Think about that for a moment.  Is it possible that we are all here as Souls in bodies to learn, to ascend, and to grow? Versus being a human that also happens to have a Soul?  What is the greatest gift of living our lives?  I believe it is to experience love.  There is no doubt in my mind that our love is deeper than what a human being can comprehend.  There must be more.

I found USM in 1997 and completed their Masters Program in Spiritual Psychology in 2000. This past year (academic) I chose to audit the Second Year of the Program to reconnect and offer myself the opportunity to experience this deep work almost 15 years later.  Not only am I further along in years, but really in a much different context of how I relate to myself.  Call it maturity, life experience, the point being I was ready to take my expansion to a whole new level.  The Second Year offers up so many amazing gifts in the curriculum and not one is more greater than another.  The sum total is an opportunity to deepen in the awareness of who I am, which I now fully understand is Love.

For reasons that are still beyond my mastery to share about here, we come into this physical world and soon after, in our infancy, we begin to forget that we are Love.  As we develop who we are, our personalities and filters of life through our experiences with our families et al., we lose touch and more importantly we begin to seek love, connection, and affirmation of who we through all external ways – the expression of love of from our parents, feeling important and seen by our friends and community and then eventually the “approval” of who we are through achievement – our talents, our grades in school and later jobs, money, success.  All the while, the purest form of Love, the more exacting kind of love for each of us, and the most steadfast of all Loving we will ever find or experience is from within.  This is who we are at our core.  Love.

I learned this at the University of Santa Monica.  And I am learning how to re-learn experiencing this with myself through this education.  It’s beautiful.  It’s profound.  It’s essential.

As I was thinking about writing this post this evening this is what came forward.  And the reason I chose to express it is because I remembered they recently launched the first course of their online program which has been in the works for over a year now.  And, it’s free.  I highly encourage if anything I have shared resonates with any part of you, that you take a look.  You can view it here.

For your consideration…

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22 – fear


















I love this! I love Seth Godin.  He always tells the truth.  I am at a juncture in my life…well, I have kind of been in it for about two years.  Where I am ready to do the BIG thing, the risky thing, the unpopular thing, the “it’s better not to tell anyone thing to avoid them throwing up all their own projected fears” kind of thing.  And today isn’t a great day.  All of my own fears of failure, success, disappointment, lack of confidence, and fatigue are really present.  I am scared.  I think I am most scared to really show up and then not be seen. Intellectually I know that is nonsense and it’s how I feel.  So, I am sitting with it.  I am being in it and I am holding myself through it, until it passes.  Because it will and instead of running from it or rejecting the feelings or even over thinking or over-verbalizing them, I am just letting them be.  That’s where I am at today. In fear and holding.

(P.S. not a capital F fear. :-))



23 – Affirmation

I learned about creating affirmations so many years ago and they continue to support me in calling forward the experience I am seeking.  After I clarify the quality or qualities that I would like to make a focus, I play until I find an affirmation statement that captures the qualities that I am intending to manifest.  This year they are Surrender and Grace.

Words are so powerful and they can be quite evocative and compelling when crafted together in a way that has heart and meaning for you.  Last year it became clear to me that a new pathway into greater fulfillment and expansion would be in my ability to surrender, to turn over whatever illusion of control I was holding and to trust that God and the universe have my back.  And, the only way I would be able to experience that is if I stepped forward with my heart in my hands and the willingness even when I was challenged to let go.

Grace, as you can see from the name of this blog, is an anchor word for me.  I experience and see grace as equal to peace, elegance, softness, beauty, and a presence of purity.  Embodying grace fully is equal to what some may call a Zen moment.  It is kind of my “namaste.”  When I am honoring myself with grace, I can easily do the same with you.

And then woven throughout my affirmation statement is the connecting it all to God, to Spirit, and my ability (should I choose) to listen inside to the God voice within me, the one that knows all that I truly need to know at any given moment.  Learning to exercise this skill and way of being is the purpose of my affirmation statement.

I am so grateful for this tool and I share it with you. Love.

jh affirmation 2012

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29 – Writer


Almost a year ago I received an email, I believe it was a horoscope email, that said something to the effect of, “Go look up the word creator in the thesaurus, capture the synonyms for this word and write them on the reverse side of your business card.”  I love stuff like that, especially when it is calling forward something for me that I can so easily disqualify for myself.  (I did this by the way and this tethered card is in my wallet right now. :-))  One of my top 5 heartfelt dreams is to write a NY Times best seller.  I realize I am not alone in that quest as I recently read that 8 out of 10 people have a desire/dream to write a book.  It seems we all have a lot to say and even more pressing is our desire to be heard (to be seen).  I can own a desire to be heard.  And what feels equally pulling is being able to share a story, express it, and experience the possibility that it may touch someone.  Whatever your artist medium is, I am sure you can relate to what I am saying.  Perhaps you are a writer too, or an organizer or you paint, or maybe your art is leadership.  Regardless, the power of engaging with our art, first with ourselves, and then with others, is irreplaceable.  I encourage myself and I encourage you to clarify, declare, express, and use your art.  Time is an illusion and the only moment is now.  And, we need more art!



32 – Intention

Beginning with this post, I have set an intention to complete a 32 day process of writing daily in this blog.  I will share whatever is present for me, speak from my heart, off the cuff, slightly unedited, and allow myself to be vulnerable.  The intended outcome of this process is to strengthen in my writing practice, commit via behavior to my own creative self-expression, reframe any limiting beliefs that come forward and of course, have some fun!

It felt clear to begin with intention and the simple yet powerful impact it has on our lives.  In Merriam-Webster’s online dictionary it describes intention as: a determination to act in a certain way; Resolve.  I would describe it as that and I will add that for me, the saying of the word out loud is the clincher.  When I decide to say it and claim it, it just seems energetically I have set something in motion.  I might have determination and resolve and the mere act of calling forward the word intention to myself is what is powerful.  For example, I have shared it here, that my intention is to complete a 32 day process of writing daily in this blog.  I have claimed it out loud to myself and publicly here (the 3 of you that may be reading this :-)).  And I also know that although clarifying the intention is the first and the most important step, it is the action that follows that is the evidence.

My belief is that I am much more likely to succeed in this endeavor when I have clarified my intention within myself and had the courage to share it out loud, first to myself, and then to others.






Who are you?

Do you know who you are?

How often are you wondering, “Who am I?”

If you are not, no biggie, it will come up eventually.  And, if you are like me and are currently in that perplexing state of consciousness, I hear you!  On so many levels, I know exactly who I am and then some times I pause and wonder, is it true?

If you are like me, you might be wondering “if I know who I am then how come my life is not more familiar?”  I don’t mean this from an existential point of view.  It is quite possible this is my own form of “mid-life” whatever and I am just really in the place of curiosity and giving myself the gift of asking the question.  I recognize that I have space in my life to do so, unlike some others.  I don’t have my own family to keep me fully engaged and in so many ways my life has settled into a more quiet way of being.  It is often these days that I wish I did have a family to be engaged with so I would think less about myself.  I realize I may have just called myself a narcissist and I don’t think I am but who the F cares if I am.  I sense we all are in some ways.  Actually it might be nice if more people were thinking more about themselves, who they are, how they are, and what their effect is on themselves and others.  And I am not at all meaning for this share to be about ranting on others.  I am just aware of the question, Who am I?  I am asking it, sitting in it and wondering about it.  I am not speaking about the obvious things either.  It is the deeper meaning of who am I and what is it that I want to really do in this life?  Before I am all used up!

Certainly my intention is to clarify the who, so that I can indeed be used up in a meaningful, interesting, and beautiful way!  Yes!  I like the sound of that.

Who are You?  Do share!

I welcome the inspiration.

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